Its been ten years and nothing's changed - yes it has - for the worse

I was lying in Sheana's Yin Yoga class that she was doing online in her apartment; Noe Valley in SF. I was relaxed in some twisted posture and looked out to the sky, through her super old windows, that the super old landlady doesn't want to replace. I saw an Om symbol at first and then it started looking like Arabic writing, in the sky, it was beautiful; its gotta be cold up there, over SF, in August.

Today I just wrote my religious exemption for the Covid vaccine, the first one, since I'm sure by the time someone reads this there will be many iterations. So much reading, panic, fear, stress, from this last year. Relationships lost - just like in '16 when Trump got elected - so similar. I can't help draw those parallels, since it feels the same. One side just ignoring common sense and now I'm "on the side" of many Republicans who I thought were bonkers; they probably still are, but we agree that we do not want an authoritarian government. Definitely the first time I ever considered moving to Florida or Texas. Maybe the Dakotas, where they let all their old people die from the start, but they're doing great now! Wonder if the same was true with Sweden, where they haven't done much, but I assume their frail population was more protected somehow. Maybe all those gun-tottin' douches were coming upstairs in their parents house and infecting everyone, when needing a break from their video games, or video porn; who knows.

Here I am, balancing it all, still working, exercising, writing my friends in Denmark, Colorado; don't even know if I know anyone in New York who isn't vaccinated. They all are, even the kids. It's heart breaking, judging from what experts have been saying from the start, and are now saying with more definitive stats and research results. Iceland coming out and saying vaccines have minimal efficacy at this point and that it's the vaccinated getting sick, Israel, same thing. It's game over - so hard to remain optimistic - and I just found out today that Bill Gates' dad was a eugenicist! Holy crap. If nothing else, I'm learning more about this country's sick history. And right on cue, my sister writes me about a Newsweek article stating that a "Doomsday" variant is coming; what a joke.